Year by year.

Friends, family, co-workers

They are getting ready for the new year. Making new goals. Writing them down.

Save more money, lose weight, pay off bills, credit cards, etc. etc.

I’d say 50% actually complete those goals or complete at least 1.

I am guilty. I am one of those people.

But this year is different, I can feel it.

I have made empty promises to myself every single year. I have created goals with zero idea on how to achieve them.  Zero intent on figuring out how to reach them. I wrote them down about the last month of the year like 99% of people; but never wrote down what it was going to take to get there. I never wrote out a plan. I never wrote down why it was important to me – to make sure that it was actually important to me, that it meant something.

In 2019, I learned a lot. I added weight to my shoulders, I removed it, and I added some more.

I spent most of 2019 on edge. Scared of what was to come. Scared of the things that I didn’t know. I didn’t know what to do or where I was going to end up.

I have learned that I don’t want to live that way anymore. I don’t want to live my life scared. I was sick of not being motivated anymore to be successful, I was sick of not exercising my mind, I was sick of making excuses for myself and saying I didn’t have time to do this or that (BTW, you WILL find the time to do whatever it is you want to do. Saying you don’t have time I learned is an excuse. and I am guilty.) I was sick of being around negative people, sick of portraying myself in a certain life to specific people, not living every day to my true potential, etc. and the list could go on and on.

I am so tired of all of that.

That is my motivation for 2020.

I have some really big goals unlike anything I have had before. My motivation is the highest it’s been in a long time, my ambition is through the roof.

I am patient.

I am on go mode but I am understanding that I need to be patient because everything I am working for will come and I need to take it one step at a time, day by day, so it is all done correctly and without fail.

I have a plan.

Here it is.

I have 2 broad goals for 2020:

I have started a few of the things I plan to achieve for 2020. I am taking baby steps and it may be silly, but they have become a real problem to me over time and 2020 is going to be a year about being present. With myself and the people that I love. Finding my circle of people that are real to me. That wouldn’t betray me. That will always support me and always looking out for my best interest. I want people in my life who are on the same road as me. They will encourage me.

My plan on learning to be more present:

  1. I started a month ago by deleting my twitter app. I didn’t delete my account. I occasionally get on my chrome app and get on twitter that way. Today, I will be no longer be getting on twitter for the entirety of 2020.
  2. I deleted over 700 friends on Facebook. I am in the process of still narrowing that down to close friends and family.
  3. I deleted over 700 Instagram followers, mostly people I don’t know at all. I am planning on keeping that where it is currently as I use that platform to share my blogs in which I want people to read.
  4. I deleted 40 snapchat friends. I only have 10 people on my snapchat list, people that I know personally.

These are all small things but I have learned from experience and tried and failed at over and over again that it takes small steps to change bad habits. It doesn’t happen over night and sometimes that it what people expect from you and we are even guilty for expecting that from others.

When it comes to social media, I do plan on laying low for 2020. It is my goal to stay more private when it comes to my life and posting on social media to people who really don’t know who I am, which is also why I have removed and will continue to remove people from my accounts that I don’t know. Like I said, my biggest goal is to be present. With this world and the people.

The reason I am choosing to be more present with my life and the people in it is because I believe me choosing not to be present has led to a majority of my own mistakes that could have been prevented. And don’t get me wrong, I think making mistakes is important to be more successful, but I have found myself making too many of the same ones over and over again which isn’t okay.


The other very big goal for 2020 is success. This branches off to A LOT of other things. The main ones has to do with money, education, and strength.

Financially, I am not in a great place. I have no one to blame but myself for that. This ties back to the lack of being present in my own life. If you’re present, you’re aware. I won’t go deep in this topic, but just know by December 31st, 2020, I will have fixed a lot of my financial burden and then I will be going up from there.

I have a lot of education to catch up on. I don’t regret anything when it comes to how I chose to go about the last 4 years. I wish I knew what I wanted to do right when I graduated high school, but I didn’t. They also don’t teach a lot of real estate agents and appraisers so it didn’t until recently become more aware of it. In 2020, I will be starting my appraiser classes and be taking my real estate test for (hopefully) the last time so I become a licensed real estate agent. Being an appraiser will take 4-5 years – but 2020 is about starting my journey not about getting everything done as fast as I can.

In 2020, I am going to strengthen myself. Not just physically, but mentally. I am going to feed my mind and body healthy things. I have started my physical strength by slowly changing my eating habits. I have never been good about working out, so I know if I make a goal of working out everyday of the week, it won’t happen. But I started by eating healthier, so then my body feels more motivated to work out. Soon, I will make the habit of working out twice a week then go from there. Silly, I know. But it’s not just about the outcome from working out or losing weight or toning up, but creating good habits that just become apart of my regular day when it hasn’t been previously. It isn’t easy to just go and work out everyday when it hasn’t ever been apart of your life before. Creating those good habits will lead to my next goal of toning up / losing weight and working out very frequently. I don’t want to have to FIND motivation to work out, I just want it to be something apart of my day-to-day routine and something I feel good about doing. It shouldn’t ever feel like a chore.

I am also feeding my mind. I am educating myself on little things. I want to garden someday and I plan on having a small garden on my balcony this summer, I spent Sunday morning learning about gardening. I am making habits of waking up by 6:30 or 7 everyday. It is when the world is quieter, I will wake up and clean, and it has now just become something that I do. It isn’t a chore to me anymore. It is just what I do and take pride in, having a clean house (now I just need to learn to put laundry away, hehe). I will read or research more about things that interests me in the mornings. It gives me the time to reflect on myself and make goals for the day ahead.

There are plenty of things I need to continue to work on when it comes to how I handle certain situations and my actions and behaviors. I overreact sometimes, have a hard time of letting things go and I can sometimes be prideful.

I really encourage you all to not just make goals, but figure out why and how you’re going to get there. If you can’t figure out why you want to do something and why it’s important to you and your life, then you’ll never have the motivation to get there.

2020 starts with being present. I believe once you’re present, everything else in my life will fall into place and things that may have been harder in the past, will become much easier.

I am ready to make 2020 my BIGGEST GLO UP. Who else is ready?








3 thoughts on “goalzz

  1. You are right on time with this post. I have been going through a hell of alot in 2019 and ended in a very depressed mental. I’ve decided to not let that break me anymore..Including negative people. My next blog post was going to be about my goals as well. You ‘ve pushed me even more to type today.
    Thank you for this luv❤

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